On some level I will always be a tomboy. One of the worst days of my life, not related to fucked up romantic crap or bodily harm, was the day it became clear that all of my guy friends had realized I was a girl. A fucking twice damned girl. All of a sudden they won’t “rough house” as hard, they’re not quite so buddy buddy, and they give me looks I don’t quite know how to interpret cause I’m not used to being a girl to much of anyone. Only they also don’t look at me the way they look at the other girls. So what the fuck am I?
I’m so fucking tired. I’m so fucking tired of these random days when someone I thought I could chill with makes that same decision, participates in the same stupid paradigm shift, decides I’m a girl and tells me they’re interested. What happened to the dude who’s just a friend?
I need to find an outlet… someplace where I can just beat the shit out of something/one…
Bae: Come over I’m horny ;)
Me: I can’t I’m murdering two teeange lovers in a clown suit
Bae: My parents are out
Why is it that one can feel so lonely so constantly…